Something to anticipate

Today is the day.

Every corner of the department is full of anticipation.

Though everyone has a calm expression, I believe they awaits for ‘The letters of joy’; just like I do.

This is one of the most anticipated moments for a white collar worker like me.

Life with anticipation makes one strong and determinant. That is why we are implant with all these words at different phrase of our life.
Ambition -> Dream -> Aim -> Objective -> Vision -> Goal

One fine day, an acquaintance asked me, “梦想是什么？怎么寻找自己的梦想？”
I sat still; it took me a second to answer her. Not because I do not know the answer. Rather, there was this emptiness in her iris that made me felt sorry for her, I don’t know why. Maybe, because she does not know what to anticipate from her life. But I believe all she needs is a little bit more exposure and time to determine her dream or goal. Maybe she does not realize she already has one, only has less prioritized it.

I believe, as long as we have something to cling on, we will be a survivor in life. Be it family, love, money or glory. It can be anything simple but important to you.

I believe everyone has one.

Life is beautiful, despite how much you possess. It’s how you appreciate from what you possess now.

Anticipate for better, but live now.

“生活有寄托，会使一个人坚强、积极、奋斗。反之，会很沮丧、无聊或颓废地活一辈子。”

Selfless or Selfish

Sometimes in life, we make selfish decision because we want to safe keep the best for ourselves. Is that a wrongful thought? Not really, I supposed. Yet why do we feel uneasy and struggle with the selfish thought occasionally?

Survivors live with face masked. ‘Never let others read you like an open book’, mom warned. She claimed that I am an open book. ‘Really?’

As I dive into the working community, I am gradually exposed to people. Many tend to hide their selfishness beneath charming smiles or smart looking appearance. I believe all behave like that for a valid reason – Security? Fear? Envy? Or maybe greed?

But how about being selflessness? It does feel good to share and it is indeed a blessing to be able to share. Yet, it is not easy to maintain selflessness at all means. To a certain extent, we need to talk ourselves out of it.

There are things which we can share with others, while some, we can be possessive. There are certain things which are meant for one individual’s possession.

Finding a balance between being selfless and being selfish is never easy. Being selfless… does anyone really care anyway?

要在自私和无私之间找个平衡点，谈何容易？

你的感情经得起考验吗？

你的感情经得起考验吗？

How strong is your love?

My boyfriend gave me a call this evening, attempted to mutter out some unpleasant news.

Apparently, his company requests him to work in Singapore this coming month end and the period might last 3-4 months. He kept quiet after telling me the whole thing. I guess he was concerned about my feelings. The last time he left for Singapore in July 2006 for 6 months, I had been strong. As a matter of fact, I have been more independent then.

On second thought, was he feeling insecure about our relationship instead? There has been a couple of breakups among our acquaintance lately. These indicate that, even the slightest period of time can jeopardize a relationship, especially long distance relationship.

The fact is that the better you get to know each other, the more [fragile|solid] your relationship can be. Well, the truth is, we are all standing on the fence, it can be either way. Despite love for each other, a solid relationship includes your acceptance of his EVERYTHING including financial status, family background, social circle, habits and life philosophy etc.

Haven’t you heard of the common phrase ‘因了解而分手’?

I think tonight will be a tough night for him as he has decisions to make.

What about me? Well, I can’t predict tomorrow and I can’t make his life miserable as well. I only know that for time being, I have faith in our relationship. If we were not meant to be, holding on to each other wouldn’t do any good either.

听起来很潇洒吧？我是真的那么想。。。

So now, I need to consider about my Krabi trip in Feb ‘07 and Latin Silver classes… ’sigh’